“I think I'm feeling good. I'm still a little nervous. I can't shake the nerves. And you know what? I think I need to radically accept that those nerves and that anxiety is going to be with me. It's probably not going to get easier as we get closer to surgery. I keep thinking I'll get used to the idea. Give me some time to get used to the idea. And then I'm like, Okay, I'm used to the idea. Wait, it's eleven days. Oh, I have so much more to do. And then I'm not used to the idea anymore.” — Emily, 11 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“Currently, the countdown is twelve days. Twelve days. So it's getting more real and time is going both very slowly and faster than I would like it to go as far as my to-do list.” — Emily, 12 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I keep thinking if I didn't have to deal with this stupid pain in my uterus right now, I could deal with everything else. And maybe that's not true. Maybe that's just the excuse I'm telling myself. But everything is a lot more irritating when I feel like I have a 15-pound rock in between my hips, pushing out, making me feel pregnant.” — Emily, 13 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I will not be capable of 100% Mom Mode that I've been in. And I can't even say 100% because I'll tell you, Adenomyosis, my period, PMS, they knock me out. So there are days where I am parenting from a couch or parenting from bed, and it sucks. And I don't even feel like 100% a parent. I feel like I'm doing the 100% I can do for that day.” — Emily, 13 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“Pre-surgery I was so worried about being a burden ... You know what's funny? I look at how much I did — and now I can do that, plus a whole lot more because so much of my time is not wrapped up dealing with pain anymore!” — Emily, Post-Op

“It's less than two weeks away. I have said to my family, I have zero shits for anything other than getting ready for this, for getting my business in order, for getting my work done, for getting the house ready for recovery. For getting me ready for recovery. I have zero shits.” — Emily, 13 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I'm a curious person, and I've gotten to the point where I'm just going to ask now. I'm just going to ask about this stuff because it's my body. She was taking photos of my body. I should be able to see them, right?” — Emily, 14 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“If somebody starts talking about, “Oh, I'm thinking of going to the menstrual cup.” I'll be like, “Oh, my gosh, it's so great! I love it! I love it! It's so great … Except for when you drop it in the toilet and you have to get it.” — Emily, 15 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“This upcoming hysterectomy is giving me a real kick in the ass as far as productivity. And also it's exciting that I get to take a look at my business and I've been seeing where I've come from.”” — Emily, 15 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“This is one of the first times in my life I'm fully disappointing people and saying, I am not available for this, or I really want to do this, but I can't. I can't physically do this. I can't mentally do this. I will be recovering from surgery, or I will be under anesthesia, and there will be no way for you to get any work out of me.” — Emily, 17 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I am intentionally focusing on the positives to try to get me through to that day. It almost feels like going against everything. It feels like society has been learning in the past few years of “Don't stick your head in the sand. Don't go to that toxic positivity.” But I think I'm also taking it with a lot of radical acceptance. I'm trying to, at least.” — Emily, 17 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

"I am worthy of, if not a pain-free existence, at least an existence with less pain, less burden." — Emily, 18 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I always think, ‘Oh, if I'm going to die … Not today, I have too much and my husband's not going to know how to handle all that stuff’" — Emily, 19 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I hope I'll be writing my own success story and then I'll be thanking everybody who wrote theirs because that's what I need and maybe this is me asking the algorithm of the universe like, Hey, I need those success stories to get me through.” — Emily, 19 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“I'm glad I didn't look up what a biopsy was before having to get one. I'm glad it was like, I walk into the office for a consult and they're like, Do you want to do the biopsy today? And I'm like, Yeah, why not?” — Emily, 20 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“This is another maybe lesson to those listening to this and I don't know, maybe to my past self. Please stop procrastinating the medical stuff. Please don't. I know it's a boring phone call. I know you're going to have to call and ask questions and talk to people and it's going to be annoying and you're just going to want to get it over with and done with and be like, Hey, I need this. Can you make it as easy on me as possible? Oh, but please do it.” — Emily, 20 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day

“One of the things I've noticed about talking about periods and hysterectomies, especially with people who are older than I am, is they're much more open to talking about that because most likely they've gone through some gynecological type of thing or they've known somebody who's gone through a hysterectomy. I'm always really grateful to have people like that in my life and to come across people who are open like that and who have the stories and willingness to share, which I guess is why I'm starting this podcast.” — Emily, 22 Days Until Uterus Eviction Day